I will lead her into the desert.....
      and speak tenderly to her
.......

The quotation from Hosea chapter 2 continues with, “There I will give her back her vineyards.”   This suggests that when she comes out of the desert there is work to do!

 Ever since the Flames of Fire conference I have been aware that the time has come to think seriously about coming out of the desert.    Several incidents led me to feel that the Lord was in fact calling me out, for this place that so many Christians dread, has become my comfort zone.   But how do I come out of the place in which I have come to feel secure, the place where it has been easy to find the Lord.   

The desert was chosen as a home by the Desert Fathers as they chose to avoid the excesses of Rome under Constantine.   This idea was emulated by Celtic Christians who chose remote parts of Wales to be alone with God.  We see evidence of this in place names such as Dysserth and associate their lifestyles with holiness but devoid of possessions and bodily comfort.   In that light there is no way that a Twenty-first century Christian equipped with a computer can follow their path, but in the reality of the spiritual journey we can still learn a great deal about ourselves, our needs, our selfishness, and about pain and suffering.   If we are willing we can learn too about the suffering of God and His pain as the world goes its own way inflicting pain on itself though almost every action.    Such  a sharing will bring forth intercessory prayer but not until we have been thoroughly stripped of our desires and our solutions.    Taken into a place of helplessness we realise that there is only one appropriate prayer “Thy will be done and thy name glorified”.   It is a prayer of love and a prayer that the Church has to live as well as say.

In her article Bruised Reeds and Smoking Flax”  Pam Worsey speaks of Brokenness.   Before I received her article I knew that we had to look at this desert in all it’s diversity, for this is our learning place as we prepare for the next Flames of Fire conference.   I believe that the Lord would have me say something about how we come out, but this fills me with awe.  How can I speak with any authority about something I have been reluctant to do?  

I’ve  spoken before of “Preparing the Way of the Lord”, the theme of the 2001 conference, as a work we have to do.   That work  is  big enough for us all and your part in it may be very different from mine.  In 1998 the Lord gave me a vision of sweeping a roadway, the “broom” was the new “weapon” and I’ve had to learn how to use it.     So it was a cleaning up job and I’m useless at housework!   However in the desert I’ve learned a lot about trusting God and accepting the fact that I can’t do it BUT He can.    Back in July I was listening to someone speaking on Song of Songs Chapter 5,  I realised that I was in the place of testing where He was not directing me  and I seemed to be alone.    Only then did I see that He was in fact trusting me to put things into practice.   This was confusing as I was also aware that He had said, “But you are not willing” in the context of I what I wanted to do at the Flames of Fire conference.   It has taken time to understand, for it was  so easy to see it as “I was not willing to do it His way”.   But it was more than that, it was not something to learn it was something to allow.....

After the conference I was drawn to Song of Songs 8:5,      I spent  time meditating on this, helped by Jerry Rheeder’s session and also  C.H. Spurgeon’s book of sermons on the Songs.  

Who is that coming up from the wilderness, leaning upon her beloved?”

 Song of Songs 8:5

  I discovered that it is often misquoted as “leaning on the arm of her beloved” .   This gives a comfortable image of a bridal couple but it should actually be an image of surrender, an image of allowing God to do His thing using her body.    That is why this is an image of maturity of the bride, a picture of holiness and beauty as described in Ephesians 5:27.    The desert or wilderness is the place where each of us needs to be taken so that the Lord can effect this transformation.

The result is truly wonderful but how often have you seen it?   Glimpses perhaps but to live in this glory, for it is His glory, is the same as living Galations 2:20.   That crucifixion took place in the desert and now she has to live......... but not her...... Christ living in her.

So do I dare come out of the desert when it is meant to be like this?    Can I serve like this?   Am I willing?   Are you?

The magazine this quarter is a mixed bag and gives glimpses of the many ways we are called to serve.    Several aspects of ministry are described, Marian Barge tells of the Christmas outreach in the local village pub and Bob and Janet Pitcher reach out to orphans in Africa.   We report on a good session with Nick Jones at the AGM and discover that God has already fed Ray Smith with some ideas for action.

Phil Rees is gently reminding us to wait on the Lord but underneath there is feeding on His word that has to happen in a solitary place so that we can hear the prophetic voice.    That voice always calling us to repent and come closer. 

But I had space to fill ....... The Lord led me to our dear friend Brian Favell.   Many of you will know of his writings in The River and he has graciously consented that I reproduce anything from that source.   Although a few years old his series on Ministry in the Church are right for us now  and so I start with the Ministry of the Prophet.    

So that mixed bag is the Church engaged in the ministry of His choosing and for which He equips us in the desert.

Mary Newsom

 

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