Even so Come LORD Jesus

Lord you call me into the depths of your heart.

But I fear to enter  that Holy place, for there I will feel your pain,  
your disappointment.

As I stand on the threshold my eyes are so close to tears and yet I can’t weep,

Is it your protection or simply my lack of love for the world and all that grieves you?

I shrink from the reality that honest prayer will make the difference.

I want to pray for the Church and the world as I see them, based on my limited knowledge and under my judgement as it were,

But you Lord want to restore all into your peace and rejoice in all men, no matter what they have done.    And we must not condemn them further.

My prayer could in fact hinder your plan, even your coming.

Lord I ask forgiveness and rejoice that you will pray your prayer in me as I surrender    my heart to you and enter yours.         

Amen                               

Mary Newsom

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